Many thanks for your promptness in responding to me! Yesterday, I made the decision to say “Yes” to the Lord, to accomplish His will and to abandon my plans and my own will. I realized from the inside what it was like to feel cut off from God, to have no taste for anything, to be as inhabited by an immense bitter sadness that comes from rejection. I realized, after three days of interior cold and gloom, that I had left the door half-opened to the icy breath of hell – yes, it’s strong, but it is what it is – and that I was risking opening the door wide open if I did not choose the will of God.
From early childhood, I have lived many tribulations and misfortunes. But since my conversion at the age of 28, the Lord has been with me at every moment, everywhere and, of course, inside myself. Whatever the tribulations, He was there with me, deep within me.
So it’s a real lesson for me to discover the abyss I was hanging over these days, to no longer experience what it is to be inhabited by God. So many of our brothers and sisters have not welcomed God and are inhabited by this loneliness and this inner emptiness!
Yesterday, in my prayers, I remembered the words: “You have a choice between Life or Death. Choose Life.” I came back to the Lord with all my heart, choosing Him and preferring to die rather than live without Him.
These tribulations will have taught me a lesson, like those of loving parents, who are not easy to accept, but who are always for the sake of the child. It also bore beautiful fruits, namely a change in my relationship with God. I enter into a more mature relationship, more fearful of God. The Lord is using everything to talk to us and make us progress on our path.

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